future footless echidna

i think that i might be getting sick. it makes sense, because last night i stayed up til nearly 6am writing a paper for someone else for $100. not very ethical of me at all, but hey, you gotta help a brother out right? it's almost like prostitution, but instead of whoring out my body, i whore out my brain. that's cool with me. i can handle that.

so really, my life is going pretty awesome right now. the coolest boy in the world bought me the coolest necklace in the world in return for the coolest money clip in the world today. tomorrow i will make the coolest german-language rollerskating action movie in the world. then i am going to go to the not-coolest town in the world (bloomington ind? what what?) and hang out with the coolest brother that i have in the world. note that i said that he's the coolest brother that i have not the coolest brother in the world. that would be far too far-reaching of an assertion.

i'm watching some hannibal lecter movie. holy shit those giant pigs are going eat clarisse. awesome. oh. no they're not. boo.

this world is not a kind one if i wake up sniffling and coughing tomorrow morning. just sayin'.

Nassim Nicholas Taleb's rules for living

1 Scepticism is effortful and costly. It is better to be sceptical about matters of large consequences, and be imperfect, foolish and human in the small and the aesthetic.

2 Go to parties. You can’t even start to know what you may find on the envelope of serendipity. If you suffer from agoraphobia, send colleagues.

3 It’s not a good idea to take a forecast from someone wearing a tie. If possible, tease people who take themselves and their knowledge too seriously.

4 Wear your best for your execution and stand dignified. Your last recourse against randomness is how you act — if you can’t control outcomes, you can control the elegance of your behaviour. You will always have the last word.

5 Don’t disturb complicated systems that have been around for a very long time. We don’t understand their logic. Don’t pollute the planet. Leave it the way we found it, regardless of scientific ‘evidence’.

6 Learn to fail with pride — and do so fast and cleanly. Maximise trial and error — by mastering the error part.

7 Avoid losers. If you hear someone use the words ‘impossible’, ‘never’, ‘too difficult’ too often, drop him or her from your social network. Never take ‘no’ for an answer (conversely, take most ‘yeses’ as ‘most probably’).

8 Don’t read newspapers for the news (just for the gossip and, of course, profiles of authors). The best filter to know if the news matters is if you hear it in cafes, restaurants... or (again) parties.

9 Hard work will get you a professorship or a BMW. You need both work and luck for a Booker, a Nobel or a private jet.

10 Answer e-mails from junior people before more senior ones. Junior people have further to go and tend to remember who slighted them.

things have been kind of weird lately. the weirdness stemming mainly from the fact that life is so conflict-free. it's boring.

stability's good and all, but i'm sure at some point everyone wonders if they're really doing the right thing. i don't want to be one of those adults who realizes that they hate everything they've ever done in their life. even glaringly obvious signs are passing me right by. i don't think i'm imperceptive, just in denial. how good can things really be?

still, it's nice to know that things are going well, for the most part. but nothing ever lasts.

fuck, i'm pathetic.

to all the physicists of the world;

i would like for you all to please find me a way to violate newton's third law.
one day i would like to touch without being touched.
get on that!

love,
gillian

everytime i close my eyes

you're in front of me
pretending in a love like this
i have no choice
but to put you in back of me,
to cover my footsteps.
dead weight alright
i know you're no good for me.
dead weight all night,
i know you're no righteous leader.
you're dead weight that's fine,
but get your hands off me
you have to touch me with kid gloves
you have to touch me with kid gloves

as of late

my life, it sucks, and so on and so on.